When I say I am a Christian

When I say,"I am a Christian,"
I'm not shouting "I am saved."
I'm whispering "I was lost!
That is why I chose His way."

When I say,"I am a Christian,"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
Needing God to be my guide.

When I say,"I am a Christian,"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And pray for strength to carry on.

When I say,"I am a Christian,"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say,"I am a Christian,"
I don't think I know it all.
I submit to my confusion
asking humbly to be taught.

When I say,"I am a Christian,"
I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are too visible
but God believes I'm worth it.

When I say,"I am a Christian,"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my shares of heartaches
which is why I seek His name.

When I say,"I am a Christian,"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I'm loved.

~from the book Chicken Soup for the Christian Soul~

definitely a book worth reading. (:

Task yet to be done

           Spoke to Father Lord every night regarding what should I preachs for my mission trip in December. Should I just tell how I became christian? Or how actually christian life has changes me into a better one?

           Short and sweet: Hello everyone! Er... I used to be a problematic child during my childhood days. Ever since I accepted Christ in my life,I became a more wiser girl. Through Him,I turn into a new leaf. Through the words in Bible,I learn lots of moral and words of wisdom of living a new life.I feels more happier and my life is no longer in a mess ever since then. He our Father in Heaven,has always be here for me whenever I'm in trouble or doubt without fail. And I really feels strongly His presence always. You will never understand what I am saying only if you have try to just by accepting Him in your life. (:

        Should I just share a short testimony like as above mention? Pastor Yang reminded us not to share something long,nagging or keep talking about our bad in the past. The main focus should be asking others to accept Christ in their life. Actually I though of using the story that someone has shared with me in Polytechnic.I think the pictorial story she used is very clear and good in expressing how our Father in Heaven has send His begotten son to Earth to save every individual from Sin on Earth. Okay! I decided to use that as my sharing point. (:

      Fast--Pray--Read. Going to fast today and prayer will start tomorrow morning. Father,I am so looking forward. Hopefully,I am able to starve through today with your strength in me. (:  In the name of Jesus,Amen!

Controlling is difficult

           I have been controlling myself for the past few months on my feeling to you.I knew it from the start that this wouldn't make it and that's the reason I have been trying hard not to even take a glance at you in church. I'm sorry to say that but truely,I knew you and me is totally impossible.We are just two different world. The only way to express and hide myself is through writing.Write and write and write. Write whatever come across my mind and divert my attention as much as possible.Hiding feeling from someone is truely turning me very crazy and not my usual self. However,looking at your eye is difficult for me. I always wanted to take a step forward to speak to you however,my soul stops me. I keep hearing her voice,"No Grace! Please stop whatever you are thinking. Please! This are all temptations that lead you to evil who brings you away from God." My Goodness! Father please rescue me out of this. Going to church now is so difficult for me,is leading me to temptation. Although I have been trying my very best not to even look at him even a glance but it was such a torturing process.I knew what it was but I still trying to persuade myself till this day that it was just a fake illusion in my soul. It's God plan to test me out. To test my Faith in Him. You know God,I have been speaking to you every night about this thought. I was asking you about it everyday for your rescue but to no avail. I pray to you not to even allow me to see him but it always coincidentally that I met him. Is this really a test you putting on me to test my Faith in you? God,please give me more directions...Is going to church now doing me good?

The taste of breaking bad news

           I was asked to be an interpreter for this particular Indian Dr N. this afternoon. Kindly, I agreed without hesitation.

           Dr N. said," Grace,can you help me break the news on behalf of me to Mr O. on his bone scan results two days ago? His bone scan result reveal that his tumor in his lung has metastasis to the bone around his shoulder,hip and knee. That's the reason why he is having pain continuously." Looking sadly at her, my mind turn blank. Mr O. was admitted after a fall at home. Persistent pain and cough brought him in to the hospital. He has a history of depression after he was diagnose CA(cancer) Lung few years ago. Looking at his history,how should I break this news to him in a nicer way as an interpreter? This was really a challenge and that was all I am thinking when Dr N. was updating me all his health condition. Putting myself in his shoe,I would definitely someone unable to accept the fact that my life is shortening day by day as the days goes by. After 15 mins of discussion, I walks toward him.

         " Uncle! This is Dr N. your team Dr who is taking care of you. She just wants to update you a little of your medical condition after the bone scan that had done two days ago. Er...Your report shown that your tumor in your lung is getter smaller after the radiotherapy. However,unfortunately, Er.....the tumor cell has spread to the bone around your shoulder,hip...Er...and knee. Er....(I started to see tears controlling in his eye)...Er...(Pondering should i continue)...Tomorrow,the radiotherapist would be seeing you to discuss with you about the radiotherapy processes and side effects..." Looking at him, I knew this is going to be another blow to him. For no reason,I started to visualise an image of me being informed that I was diagnosed with cancer. In this image,I was totally sank in silent and sadness. Pinching my thigh,I'm back to reality. Thanks Goodness that was just an illusion.

          Mr O. was totally lost that he was staring blankly at us speechlessly. I totally could understand how he feels. Reinforce to him not to worry as the health care team going to definitely help him through this painful process. He thanks us profusely despite the sadness. Speaking in English so as not to allow Mr O. understand our conversation,I asked," Is he really going to be cure even after the radiotherapy? Dr N. shake her head and replied," Incurable. We could only help him stop the pain as much as we could and the rest is up to him. His lung cancer prognosis is no good. Definitely it wont. We will refer him to palliative team to maximise the comfort we could provide for him." Back looking at him smiling patting at his shoulder gently,I told him,"You will be save! Not to worry. All you need to do is eat more and have more energy to exercise. You would definitely gets better."
            
         However,I knew I told a lie......

The most touching True Love Story on Earth

           I had a patient who is critically ill in my cubicle. Despite his illness,Mrs X. came to visit him almost everyday without fail. Looking at the physically appearance of her, it definitely move every tears. An old lady walking with a 90 degree bending forward with an unsteady gait pushing a pram of hers everywhere she goes. Without fail, she visits her bedbounce husband who is totally dependant on others on daily activities. Carrying a smile whoever she met is really a heart-warming sight that really touches individual heart and soul. In her pram,she carries all the home prepared foods with the helps of volunteers who visited her daily and as well as from her relatives who visited her occasionally. She shares unselfishly of all the tonics with her husband that the volunteers donated.

           Sept 11. Dr M. broke news to her that her husband is in a critically ill state. He might left her unknowingly at unspecified time. Her heart broke on the spot as her facial expression tells. She replied calmly,"Thank You Dr for the care during all this while. I really hope you could save my husband in all means. He is the only person that I am motivated to survive till this day. Unfortunately,we have no children. I'm fine with your suggestion of sending him to nursing home upon discharge as I feels i may unable to take good care of him. But I'm alright even if he is home,I am still able to cook and feed him without any difficulties. However,for his well-being,I go with your suggestion on sending him to nursing home for the best care." Dr M. was really touched upon hearing this from the wife. I could see the twinkling eye from him when he updated me on his plan after the short conversation with his wife.

            Sept 12. Saw her pushing her pram walking through the entrance of the cubicle slowly,useing her pram as a walking aid. She say hello and smile to me gracefully with her denture revealing partially.She instructed her husband to repeat after her,"say thank you to Missy (:" So as her husband did. The thanksgiving thought of her really brighten up my day. Seeing her husband refused profusely over hospital foods after three mouthful, she slowly open up her pram and took out a vacuum filled with plain porridge that she prepared. She adjust herself in a position comfortable for feeding and said,"I will feed him myself. It's OK! I can do it myself. Thank You Missy! You are very kind. (:" The sunshine smile has never faded every since she steps in. After her husband finished the porridge,she slowly make her way through the pram again and reach out for a bottle of chicken essence. Oh! that was really sweet! "Missy! Can help me make hot?" Speaking to me with her back bending 90 degree forward is definitely a heartbreaking sight. After making hot,she took out a straw from her pram and make her way through again positioning herself to feed her husband. Really! It totally a heartwarming sight. I always thought that romance story like this only appears in TV. To my surprise,I witnessed a real LIVE touching love story on Earth. Dspite all physcial limitations, nothing is more important than kin-ship. After 9pm,she was caught sleeping outside the TV area after watching TV. A colleague of mine wake her up from her dream,she refused to go home. Why? She replied," I still got an orange juice for him." She slowly make her way back pushing the pram again and fed his husband. She only agrees to leave after the last feeding. Tears really rolled in my eye at this moment. I volunteer to send her off to the taxi stand but was rejected kindly. I asked her where she is going to hire a taxi at this late hour? she told me at Blk 5(which usually taxi seldom pass by). I offered to bring her to Blk 4 instead whereby more taxis would drive pass,she replied," It's OK! I can go take taxi myself. I always go there. Sure have! it's late. You go home first.Thank You Missy! " She actually concerned about the time for me. Indeed it was late. She is totally someone who is unselfish,kindhearted and sweet. Looking at her, I feels I'm so small and incomparable to her. Hope God watch over her in heaven and bless her and her husband. (:

            Life shouldn't be about ourself. You only see the meaningful in it if you are ready to serve others and only through serving...JOY,HAPPINESS and LOVE will be given to you. (: Thanks Mrs X. for teaching me a lesson.

            In the name of Jesus,Amen!

Human nature

On the opposite coast of sadness,
is something called a smile.

But before we can go there,
is there something we're waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams,
we can't have a reason to run away.
We have to walk straight on,
in a place worn down by sadness.

Something called a miracle is waiting.
Yet we are still searching,
for the sunflower to blossom at the end of spring.

The warrior who awaits the morning light,
before he can clasp it with red nails,
his tears glitter and fall.

Even if we've grown used to loneliness,
only relying on the light of the moon brings accompany to one.

We have to fly away with featherless wing,
just go forward,just a little further.

As  the rain clouds break,
the wet streets sparkling shine.
Although it brings only darkness,
a powerful,powerful light above helps push us to walk on without fear.

And thanks God,
for creating human with full of wisdom and emotions.
That what make us unique on earth.

Biography Fans

           Love reading biography. Enjoy reading others biography and their motivation rush that pushes them to be a successful man now. I can be so engross in a book to the extend that I can miss a meal unknowingly! Can U imagine how crazy am I? The idea of writing journal daily if possible origin from here. I wouldn't want to miss any page of happiness found daily in my life especially to someone short term memory like me.

          Just read finish Fann's self-Illustrated biography. I used to have a neutral image on her about her celebrity life. However,after reading her biography,it alter the impression of me on her. She is indeed a very hardworking artist that is being hinder behind the scene. She depicts her life in the book as an adventures journey that brought her from a girl-next-door to a famous celebrity till today.The tears,the laughters,the perseverance....and it makes me realised being a successful man is not easy. Enjoy reading the most is her childhood chapter whereby she share stuffs like Lipton tea was used to be an 'in' thing in the past(which i couldn't believe) or how she got spilt boiling water on her thigh and her dad poured dark soy sauce over it(according to her dad it's supposed to be good for burns in the past which i couldn't believe too). Coming up next on the shelf will be Thaddeus Cheong biography. He is one of the most inspiring teenager who has a deep passion for sport and excelled in triathlon. His biography was being written by his aunt after his departure on June 24 2007 after completing the 24th south east Asia games triathlon achieving the third position at the age of 17 years old. Definitely the most true worth reading books ever.

           Biography may not be just inspirating true life story. It can also be words of wisdom in this ongoing complicated century whereby we are surrounded by all irresistible temptations. Books like Fridays with Philip is one of it.He complied all his interesting interviews in a book sharing topics like language(I worry about our English standards today) to People (Had Lee Kuan Yew not been tough?). FYI,he is a writer who wrote weekly Friday column in the newspaper from Streats(Old times newspaper heading) in 2002 to The Straits Times.

          Just a little sharing session of mine in a paragraph: My mum has the most hardest times when I'm in pri sch. Playing truant and getting poor results is what upset her the most. Being canned with ruler the most times and being the most talkative student in class is my champion tittle in class.Every year,my report book comment will only be one line: Grace is too talkative in class and she needs to concentrate more in her studies to improve her grades. During my PS LE year,mum finally quit her job and guided me on my studies. Memoriesing my science book is all i do daily after school. Words by words without missing before i am allowed to go to bed. And it tooks me almost half a year to memorise all the 3 years science books(P3 to P6) before i sat for my PS LE. Thankfully,My science improved tremendously from a F to a B+ all because of her. I was enrolled to a good secondary school. But I missed the opportunity in excelling.However,this never puts me down and I'm actually thankful till this days of what i had gone through to make me to be who I am today.Life may not be the way I desire but always keeping in mind,failure is important as it keeps me motivated and gives me strength constantly. Without failure,I will never know what is the taste of success. Everyone has a biography to share,so do I. I enjoy reading others and I hope whoever reading now enjoy reading mine too. (:

Life after death

           What's life after death? Looking at the body of one of my patient today that i had been nursing for the past few days,the first thought i had was where is the soul of this man now? Is he on the way to the bridge or still waiting patiently beside the bedside waiting to see his family the last time before following the angels to register death certificate in heaven. My heart was aching badly at that moment. How could someone death be so sudden? And yes! I have done my first last office today for him. :(
       
           10.20am. Relative came to visit him. His daughter-in-law was still questioning me on why am I forbidding him from drinking water. After explaining the whole anatomy of how water can harm him according to his health condition at this status,his daughter-in-law still gave him a few sips of water. While, that's not within my control.11.45pm. Serve Lunch. Fed him though as he seem to unable to focus his spoon on the rice. Approach him to help and he refused his lunch. The only request from him was," I want to drink water!" Kinda argue with him that his condition now don't allow him to do so. And I actually removed the cup which he is reaching for. He kinda throw tantrum. Next minute,lots of fluid regurgitation heard. He seems to have choke from the water that he has been forcing to drink down. I quickly done a immediate "chest physio" for him. After 2 mins,he say he is fine. Went to attend the next patient beside him. And there his face turns greenish sleeping with his mouth open. Looking carefully, it seem not right. No chest rise,no breathing. Approach him frightening,and my six sense confirm the truth. Feels pulse,there still is. Yell at him loudly,unresponsive. Oh dear! Went to confirm with my colleagues. True enough,he is gone. My heart stop,stoning takes place. What am I going to do now? Knowing nothing, I just follow Mary and Hui Min. Thanks God for their presence and help.

             While preparing to clean the body,overheard the son and daughter conversation outside which really make me ponder. Brother told sister," Too bad,Dad didn't accept Christ. I didn't know what to do. I mean,life is gone means gone. He can't go heaven now." From the tone of his voice,i guess the son is a christian and the daughter is not. Cos the daughter seem to be can't really bother about his brother. Ignoring in progress. Oh well, after all "DAD" is gone. Is it important in discussing this kind of issue at this moment? After a few minutes,more and more relatives came. Crying all over. All my patients in the room seem to know something and kept quiet looking at them crying. Sadness and sorrow filled. Reinforcement takes place: Treasure all U have now in Life. Nothing going to be forever.

            I prayed for him while cleaning him up. I prayed to God that even he is not a son of him,I hope Father in heaven still forgive him graciously of all his sin. Bless him to be peaceful in heaven and guide him to the right paths after death. Seriously,death is not frightening at all. Throughout the progress I pray and pray and pray. Miracle,God took out the fear in me. Thanks the holy spirit for embracing me the courage.

Sunday the Holy Sabbath day

           Sunday the holy Sabbath day? In Deuteronomy 5:12 ,'Observe the Sabbath day, to keep it holy, as the Lord your God commanded you.' Yes! Today is Sunday,the Sabbath day for all Christian :) Attended my first baptism class this afternoon with Pastor Isaiah and another lady whom I had forgotten her name.(I'm sorry) .Signed up as a membership in Cornerstone and read through the Baptism Policy. What really caught my attention was the first sentence under condition,"Baptism candidates are required to attend all the classes,failing which you will disqualify yourself from being baptized." Oh dear,God! I'm working morning for the next two consecutive Sundays. Isn't I'm going to miss two lessons and being disqualify again? My will is to get baptise before heading for my mission trip in Dec. Am I able to do so? As Pastor Isaiah was reading through the Policy,my face went uneasy. What am I going to do next? At that moment when I'm asking God for advise,Pastor Isaiah continued," We do makeup for missing lessons. However,important lesson like a Day away with God shouldn't be absent!If not,my advise is to re-lesson again for the next baptism class. I quickly fumbled through my bag for my organiser,luckily I'm available for that day. Thanks God! Now,my only concern is the missing lessons in between due to work. Now waiting patiently for Pastor Isaiah call and advise ... ... ... Pastor Isaiah wants us to choose a baptism name too before Sept 4.I seriously have no ideas on any.Can I choose Gracious as my baptism name? Hahas,sound nice isn't it--Gracious's Grace (though I am not one) :p

            Today service preached by Pastor Pei Han. According to Sarah,he is one of the Pastor in Cornerstone whom I never met before. He preached on an interesting topic on Prophetic Evangelism and what are the ways of receiving the revelation and stuffs. Really enjoyed. Along the way,pictures flash through my mind on unclear images about myself in future. Couldn't believe of what I saw but I guess that's God's plan.I will continue pray and seek for advise and directions :)

           Had a great day out with polymate PL today at esplanade. Updated each other on current life and doings. Really glad to hear that she is enjoyng herself in the neonatal ward. So envy! She can handle babies everyday :) I want to!!! .... ... anyway,really surprised to hear lots too on other topics that she had shared.Great sharing session ...Cheers to our ongoing longlasting friendship. :)

           Cell yesterday was fun. Played dog-and-bone together and most of all,Chi Koon the cell entertainer brought most laughter in all. :) Yesterday, kevin and Jeremy preached about the Model prayer in Matthew 6:9-13. Went more in dept on the meaning of the Model prayer and how it benefit us in doing daily prayer.
Visited Xing Hwa's mum after that and had a great dinner with her family. :) Ended my day with a KFC Bandito for Dad as his supper along my way home. :)

          Prayer for the day: Father Lord,I thanks for this day with lots of good memory and wisdom.Thanks for the foods,the companion,the love,the joy and the truth.May you continue to magnified Your words and strength in my soul. Bless every soul in Your name and heal the broken ones.

          In the name of Jesus,Amen!

A 'FREE' lesson learnt

           Oh please do not be mistaken! I'm referring to I had my first and free guitar lesson today with Wynstan at SMU today ever since Mr Brandon left.(my previous guitar teacher who has left to study in Australia).Unbelievable,I had learnt to play two songs(I'm yours and How great is our God) within an hour,all thanks to him. :) Awesome! He is really very patient. Along the way,make multiple mistakes. However,he only smile and said,"it's alright! take it slow! :) Thanks God for this session today :)

          Ended my nights yesterday. Slept for 16 hours in total. Feels so refresh and energetic. Thanks God for this beautiful day. Had KFC for dinner after lesson and durian as dessert. Wow! I'm now worrying on the total calories intake from the amount that i had just ate. Hahas! Learnt to sing a Japanese song today. Sang it to mum and she said," Nice! but it sound like you are singing a Korean song." I stone at her and said thanks cos i knew the answer. Hahas! Anyway, I'm glad i learnt something new today regardless of the negative feedback from Mum. Fruitful day spent. :)

         Cell on Saturday and service on Sunday. Going to have a great weekend. :) Meeting poly mate PL for a dinner after Sunday service. I'm so looking forward to see her ever since we last met on graduation ceremony. :) Bible study tomorrow with Sarah and i have memories none of the verse. Well done! Going to burn a little midnight oil tonight. :p

        Prayer for the day: Thanks Father for the day,for the lesson,for the wisdom. Oh father Lord,I pray in your name every mankind on earth is bless with good health,good mind and good soul.

        In Jesus name,Amen!

Cent of happiness

         Hooray! My 3 nights are over! :) Recalling three days ago at this time,I am still worrying about my nights. Well,It's over! Honestly,I hates doing nights shift because I can't sleep well in the afternoon as I am someone easily arousable by noise and worst more pimples always visit me whenever I'm doing my nights :(

          Going to have 5 days straight day off starting from today. Thankfully,I can spent more time with the family. Going to catch a movie-Inception this Friday with the family again (Dad has been waiting patiently for my next day off to go together). Heard it has a very complicated storyline according to Dr Diong,i will watch how true it is this friday then. :)

          Was looking at the EO Digital Photographic brochure which I received during graduation,was attempting to drag Mum and dad along for a family portrait. :) But it seem a little over price and Mum feels I shouldn't be too impulsive. Hmm... ...will reconsider and look around again then.

         Coincidentally, the pillow vendor was here today. Bought myself a King size pillow on my way home. Surprisingly,he gave me a great discount at the price of $18(usual price $22) together with a FREE King size Pink Precious Moment pillow case :) Actually,Mum own one in her bedroom which I always wanted to have one too as it is huge and comfortable. Angrily, the vendor charge Mum at $25 3 months ago. Wow! Isn't that is so unfair to Mum. :(

         Can't believe I am selected for the mission trip in December to Sri Lanka as I thought only spiritually mutual personnel has higher chances for being chosen. Riskly,I applied my Annual Leave a month ago without confirmation. I can't be bothered at that moment if I'm selected not as Jesus said to me,"Go your way; your faith will made you well." True enough,I am selected! Rejoice set in. In Mark verse16:15, it talks about the Great Commission. "Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature. ... ... lay hands on the sick,and they will recover." I am not someone spiritually mutual yet however I strongly believe even as an 'infant', God has his own task and mission for me too :) Hope this journey brought me a step closer to Him and enhances my personnel with expanding wisdom,passion,perseverance,graciousness,generousity and love. :)

         In the name of Jesus,Amen!

Exhausted Tuesday

           One night down,2 more rounds to go. I prayed really hard on my way to work yesterday and with Faith and Grace,God really granted me a peaceful night :) Reach home today at 9am early in the morning. Ate 3 sardine curry puffs and a fish Otah for breakfast. Unhealthily, also drank a bottle of coke as beverage :p Slept throughout the whole morning and afternoon. Feels so refresh and energetic after the long hours 'nap' :) Ate dinner with parent and discuss a little over the mission trip in December.

         Recently Mum has been catching closely over a Korean drama--Pure in heart cast by Goo Hye-sun and Seo Ji Suk. Was really surprise upon knowing this because she don't really fanciful over crying scenes which most found in Korean dramas. Curiously,I went to watch online myself on this particular drama which has interest her. To my surprise,it's just a typical complicated love story cast by some pretty and handsome artists.Wow! Mum is catching a teenage love idol drama. Unbelievable!

        Went for an evening jogged yesterday and diagnosed with body ache and bilateral lower limbs weakness today. :(  My limbs,my back especially the trapezium muscle,my abdominal muscle and chest muscle especially the pectoris major and minor is all tense and aching. Ouch!O well, serve me right for not exercising. :( From today onwards,going to run alternate days and maybe a fortnightly swim to stay fit and healthy as well as an excuse to lose weight :p Going to drag mum and dad one day too in my exercise regime plan :)

       In the bible,it talks about assurance of answered prayer. In john 16:24," Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will received,and your joy will be complete." Everyday I prays for wisdom,love,good health and happiness and I knows the Father in heaven must have heard cos He always never fail in giving me joy :) 

       In the name of Jesus,Amen!

Monday blues

           Today is national Day. But i don't feel the atmosphere of joyous occasion surrounding me. Peace and quietness is all I observed. None footprint found on a quiet road and garden that illustrate today is a Public Holiday. :( Bad sign! I'm down with sore throat and a little chills. O dear,I'm working night shift tonight. How could this happen to me? God! Please help me and heal my illness.

          Wanted to write a journal yesterday but was attracted by the Sunday Prime time movie cast by Jackie Chan: The forbidden Kingdom. Great action movie with a little unrealistic scene :p But well,that's for entertainment only,we can't expect much though. Anyway,I slept halfway through cos of my tiredness and chills. Thanks God,I'm much better now after a good night sleep :)

         Saturday night have a little drink with my ex-colleagues on Sharon's wedding. drank a cup of wine and 2 cups of Vodka. O gosh,my head went spinning when i reach home. slept for only 4 hours before heading to work again. :( My head is aching so badly that I'm afraid i might make mistakes during work. every move i took,i double check many times. The feeling of this is totally disgusting. :p I promise not to challenge myself again if i got to work the next day.

          Monday morning worrying morning night. What is this? O please God,may my this 3 consecutive nights shift is a quiet and peaceful one without any harassment. :p

          In your name of Jesus,Amen!

A sleepy Saturday

           I'm so sleepy!!! Slept at 12+ yesterday and being disturb by a call from Mum at 8+ today. Thanks to the call,I'm unable to sleep anymore. My head is feeling 'heavy' now...argh!!!Tonight still got an important function to attend--Sharon's wedding dinner... ...and guess what? I'm working morning shift tmr :( what an excellent roster it was!

           Last night had an awesome musical concert,a musical production by Generations :) It's about the prodigal father--a warmth typical family story depicting an unmeasurable father's LOVE to his children :) Initially invited PL,however she gots to work unknowingly. In the end,was Hee Teck accompany. Well, whoever it is,thanks God for the awesome show and friend. :)

          Waking up early in the morning unplanned,drank a cup of hot milk tea(my routine) watching TV. On and off, was very restless. Please God,let me back to sleep. I'm really really very tired. Ate lots of the natural confectionery 'snakes' jellies which i bought last night. Tidy a little my wall board,re-pasting and re-positioning all the memorable memos and cards from friends. Re-reading all and my heart feels so sweet again. Thanks God for all the friends in my life. :) Now cracking my brain on how to 'hang' all photos of mine on my bedroom wall.

          This afternoon should have cell and bible study with Sarah. But God please forgive me of my laziness and tiredness :( I'm really have no mood in everything when I'm tired :(