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Thursday, August 26, 2010

Biography Fans

           Love reading biography. Enjoy reading others biography and their motivation rush that pushes them to be a successful man now. I can be so engross in a book to the extend that I can miss a meal unknowingly! Can U imagine how crazy am I? The idea of writing journal daily if possible origin from here. I wouldn't want to miss any page of happiness found daily in my life especially to someone short term memory like me.

          Just read finish Fann's self-Illustrated biography. I used to have a neutral image on her about her celebrity life. However,after reading her biography,it alter the impression of me on her. She is indeed a very hardworking artist that is being hinder behind the scene. She depicts her life in the book as an adventures journey that brought her from a girl-next-door to a famous celebrity till today.The tears,the laughters,the perseverance....and it makes me realised being a successful man is not easy. Enjoy reading the most is her childhood chapter whereby she share stuffs like Lipton tea was used to be an 'in' thing in the past(which i couldn't believe) or how she got spilt boiling water on her thigh and her dad poured dark soy sauce over it(according to her dad it's supposed to be good for burns in the past which i couldn't believe too). Coming up next on the shelf will be Thaddeus Cheong biography. He is one of the most inspiring teenager who has a deep passion for sport and excelled in triathlon. His biography was being written by his aunt after his departure on June 24 2007 after completing the 24th south east Asia games triathlon achieving the third position at the age of 17 years old. Definitely the most true worth reading books ever.

           Biography may not be just inspirating true life story. It can also be words of wisdom in this ongoing complicated century whereby we are surrounded by all irresistible temptations. Books like Fridays with Philip is one of it.He complied all his interesting interviews in a book sharing topics like language(I worry about our English standards today) to People (Had Lee Kuan Yew not been tough?). FYI,he is a writer who wrote weekly Friday column in the newspaper from Streats(Old times newspaper heading) in 2002 to The Straits Times.

          Just a little sharing session of mine in a paragraph: My mum has the most hardest times when I'm in pri sch. Playing truant and getting poor results is what upset her the most. Being canned with ruler the most times and being the most talkative student in class is my champion tittle in class.Every year,my report book comment will only be one line: Grace is too talkative in class and she needs to concentrate more in her studies to improve her grades. During my PS LE year,mum finally quit her job and guided me on my studies. Memoriesing my science book is all i do daily after school. Words by words without missing before i am allowed to go to bed. And it tooks me almost half a year to memorise all the 3 years science books(P3 to P6) before i sat for my PS LE. Thankfully,My science improved tremendously from a F to a B+ all because of her. I was enrolled to a good secondary school. But I missed the opportunity in excelling.However,this never puts me down and I'm actually thankful till this days of what i had gone through to make me to be who I am today.Life may not be the way I desire but always keeping in mind,failure is important as it keeps me motivated and gives me strength constantly. Without failure,I will never know what is the taste of success. Everyone has a biography to share,so do I. I enjoy reading others and I hope whoever reading now enjoy reading mine too. (:

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Life after death

           What's life after death? Looking at the body of one of my patient today that i had been nursing for the past few days,the first thought i had was where is the soul of this man now? Is he on the way to the bridge or still waiting patiently beside the bedside waiting to see his family the last time before following the angels to register death certificate in heaven. My heart was aching badly at that moment. How could someone death be so sudden? And yes! I have done my first last office today for him. :(
       
           10.20am. Relative came to visit him. His daughter-in-law was still questioning me on why am I forbidding him from drinking water. After explaining the whole anatomy of how water can harm him according to his health condition at this status,his daughter-in-law still gave him a few sips of water. While, that's not within my control.11.45pm. Serve Lunch. Fed him though as he seem to unable to focus his spoon on the rice. Approach him to help and he refused his lunch. The only request from him was," I want to drink water!" Kinda argue with him that his condition now don't allow him to do so. And I actually removed the cup which he is reaching for. He kinda throw tantrum. Next minute,lots of fluid regurgitation heard. He seems to have choke from the water that he has been forcing to drink down. I quickly done a immediate "chest physio" for him. After 2 mins,he say he is fine. Went to attend the next patient beside him. And there his face turns greenish sleeping with his mouth open. Looking carefully, it seem not right. No chest rise,no breathing. Approach him frightening,and my six sense confirm the truth. Feels pulse,there still is. Yell at him loudly,unresponsive. Oh dear! Went to confirm with my colleagues. True enough,he is gone. My heart stop,stoning takes place. What am I going to do now? Knowing nothing, I just follow Mary and Hui Min. Thanks God for their presence and help.

             While preparing to clean the body,overheard the son and daughter conversation outside which really make me ponder. Brother told sister," Too bad,Dad didn't accept Christ. I didn't know what to do. I mean,life is gone means gone. He can't go heaven now." From the tone of his voice,i guess the son is a christian and the daughter is not. Cos the daughter seem to be can't really bother about his brother. Ignoring in progress. Oh well, after all "DAD" is gone. Is it important in discussing this kind of issue at this moment? After a few minutes,more and more relatives came. Crying all over. All my patients in the room seem to know something and kept quiet looking at them crying. Sadness and sorrow filled. Reinforcement takes place: Treasure all U have now in Life. Nothing going to be forever.

            I prayed for him while cleaning him up. I prayed to God that even he is not a son of him,I hope Father in heaven still forgive him graciously of all his sin. Bless him to be peaceful in heaven and guide him to the right paths after death. Seriously,death is not frightening at all. Throughout the progress I pray and pray and pray. Miracle,God took out the fear in me. Thanks the holy spirit for embracing me the courage.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Sunday the Holy Sabbath day

           Sunday the holy Sabbath day? In Deuteronomy 5:12 ,'Observe the Sabbath day, to keep it holy, as the Lord your God commanded you.' Yes! Today is Sunday,the Sabbath day for all Christian :) Attended my first baptism class this afternoon with Pastor Isaiah and another lady whom I had forgotten her name.(I'm sorry) .Signed up as a membership in Cornerstone and read through the Baptism Policy. What really caught my attention was the first sentence under condition,"Baptism candidates are required to attend all the classes,failing which you will disqualify yourself from being baptized." Oh dear,God! I'm working morning for the next two consecutive Sundays. Isn't I'm going to miss two lessons and being disqualify again? My will is to get baptise before heading for my mission trip in Dec. Am I able to do so? As Pastor Isaiah was reading through the Policy,my face went uneasy. What am I going to do next? At that moment when I'm asking God for advise,Pastor Isaiah continued," We do makeup for missing lessons. However,important lesson like a Day away with God shouldn't be absent!If not,my advise is to re-lesson again for the next baptism class. I quickly fumbled through my bag for my organiser,luckily I'm available for that day. Thanks God! Now,my only concern is the missing lessons in between due to work. Now waiting patiently for Pastor Isaiah call and advise ... ... ... Pastor Isaiah wants us to choose a baptism name too before Sept 4.I seriously have no ideas on any.Can I choose Gracious as my baptism name? Hahas,sound nice isn't it--Gracious's Grace (though I am not one) :p

            Today service preached by Pastor Pei Han. According to Sarah,he is one of the Pastor in Cornerstone whom I never met before. He preached on an interesting topic on Prophetic Evangelism and what are the ways of receiving the revelation and stuffs. Really enjoyed. Along the way,pictures flash through my mind on unclear images about myself in future. Couldn't believe of what I saw but I guess that's God's plan.I will continue pray and seek for advise and directions :)

           Had a great day out with polymate PL today at esplanade. Updated each other on current life and doings. Really glad to hear that she is enjoyng herself in the neonatal ward. So envy! She can handle babies everyday :) I want to!!! .... ... anyway,really surprised to hear lots too on other topics that she had shared.Great sharing session ...Cheers to our ongoing longlasting friendship. :)

           Cell yesterday was fun. Played dog-and-bone together and most of all,Chi Koon the cell entertainer brought most laughter in all. :) Yesterday, kevin and Jeremy preached about the Model prayer in Matthew 6:9-13. Went more in dept on the meaning of the Model prayer and how it benefit us in doing daily prayer.
Visited Xing Hwa's mum after that and had a great dinner with her family. :) Ended my day with a KFC Bandito for Dad as his supper along my way home. :)

          Prayer for the day: Father Lord,I thanks for this day with lots of good memory and wisdom.Thanks for the foods,the companion,the love,the joy and the truth.May you continue to magnified Your words and strength in my soul. Bless every soul in Your name and heal the broken ones.

          In the name of Jesus,Amen!

Friday, August 13, 2010

A 'FREE' lesson learnt

           Oh please do not be mistaken! I'm referring to I had my first and free guitar lesson today with Wynstan at SMU today ever since Mr Brandon left.(my previous guitar teacher who has left to study in Australia).Unbelievable,I had learnt to play two songs(I'm yours and How great is our God) within an hour,all thanks to him. :) Awesome! He is really very patient. Along the way,make multiple mistakes. However,he only smile and said,"it's alright! take it slow! :) Thanks God for this session today :)

          Ended my nights yesterday. Slept for 16 hours in total. Feels so refresh and energetic. Thanks God for this beautiful day. Had KFC for dinner after lesson and durian as dessert. Wow! I'm now worrying on the total calories intake from the amount that i had just ate. Hahas! Learnt to sing a Japanese song today. Sang it to mum and she said," Nice! but it sound like you are singing a Korean song." I stone at her and said thanks cos i knew the answer. Hahas! Anyway, I'm glad i learnt something new today regardless of the negative feedback from Mum. Fruitful day spent. :)

         Cell on Saturday and service on Sunday. Going to have a great weekend. :) Meeting poly mate PL for a dinner after Sunday service. I'm so looking forward to see her ever since we last met on graduation ceremony. :) Bible study tomorrow with Sarah and i have memories none of the verse. Well done! Going to burn a little midnight oil tonight. :p

        Prayer for the day: Thanks Father for the day,for the lesson,for the wisdom. Oh father Lord,I pray in your name every mankind on earth is bless with good health,good mind and good soul.

        In Jesus name,Amen!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Cent of happiness

         Hooray! My 3 nights are over! :) Recalling three days ago at this time,I am still worrying about my nights. Well,It's over! Honestly,I hates doing nights shift because I can't sleep well in the afternoon as I am someone easily arousable by noise and worst more pimples always visit me whenever I'm doing my nights :(

          Going to have 5 days straight day off starting from today. Thankfully,I can spent more time with the family. Going to catch a movie-Inception this Friday with the family again (Dad has been waiting patiently for my next day off to go together). Heard it has a very complicated storyline according to Dr Diong,i will watch how true it is this friday then. :)

          Was looking at the EO Digital Photographic brochure which I received during graduation,was attempting to drag Mum and dad along for a family portrait. :) But it seem a little over price and Mum feels I shouldn't be too impulsive. Hmm... ...will reconsider and look around again then.

         Coincidentally, the pillow vendor was here today. Bought myself a King size pillow on my way home. Surprisingly,he gave me a great discount at the price of $18(usual price $22) together with a FREE King size Pink Precious Moment pillow case :) Actually,Mum own one in her bedroom which I always wanted to have one too as it is huge and comfortable. Angrily, the vendor charge Mum at $25 3 months ago. Wow! Isn't that is so unfair to Mum. :(

         Can't believe I am selected for the mission trip in December to Sri Lanka as I thought only spiritually mutual personnel has higher chances for being chosen. Riskly,I applied my Annual Leave a month ago without confirmation. I can't be bothered at that moment if I'm selected not as Jesus said to me,"Go your way; your faith will made you well." True enough,I am selected! Rejoice set in. In Mark verse16:15, it talks about the Great Commission. "Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature. ... ... lay hands on the sick,and they will recover." I am not someone spiritually mutual yet however I strongly believe even as an 'infant', God has his own task and mission for me too :) Hope this journey brought me a step closer to Him and enhances my personnel with expanding wisdom,passion,perseverance,graciousness,generousity and love. :)

         In the name of Jesus,Amen!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Exhausted Tuesday

           One night down,2 more rounds to go. I prayed really hard on my way to work yesterday and with Faith and Grace,God really granted me a peaceful night :) Reach home today at 9am early in the morning. Ate 3 sardine curry puffs and a fish Otah for breakfast. Unhealthily, also drank a bottle of coke as beverage :p Slept throughout the whole morning and afternoon. Feels so refresh and energetic after the long hours 'nap' :) Ate dinner with parent and discuss a little over the mission trip in December.

         Recently Mum has been catching closely over a Korean drama--Pure in heart cast by Goo Hye-sun and Seo Ji Suk. Was really surprise upon knowing this because she don't really fanciful over crying scenes which most found in Korean dramas. Curiously,I went to watch online myself on this particular drama which has interest her. To my surprise,it's just a typical complicated love story cast by some pretty and handsome artists.Wow! Mum is catching a teenage love idol drama. Unbelievable!

        Went for an evening jogged yesterday and diagnosed with body ache and bilateral lower limbs weakness today. :(  My limbs,my back especially the trapezium muscle,my abdominal muscle and chest muscle especially the pectoris major and minor is all tense and aching. Ouch!O well, serve me right for not exercising. :( From today onwards,going to run alternate days and maybe a fortnightly swim to stay fit and healthy as well as an excuse to lose weight :p Going to drag mum and dad one day too in my exercise regime plan :)

       In the bible,it talks about assurance of answered prayer. In john 16:24," Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will received,and your joy will be complete." Everyday I prays for wisdom,love,good health and happiness and I knows the Father in heaven must have heard cos He always never fail in giving me joy :) 

       In the name of Jesus,Amen!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Monday blues

           Today is national Day. But i don't feel the atmosphere of joyous occasion surrounding me. Peace and quietness is all I observed. None footprint found on a quiet road and garden that illustrate today is a Public Holiday. :( Bad sign! I'm down with sore throat and a little chills. O dear,I'm working night shift tonight. How could this happen to me? God! Please help me and heal my illness.

          Wanted to write a journal yesterday but was attracted by the Sunday Prime time movie cast by Jackie Chan: The forbidden Kingdom. Great action movie with a little unrealistic scene :p But well,that's for entertainment only,we can't expect much though. Anyway,I slept halfway through cos of my tiredness and chills. Thanks God,I'm much better now after a good night sleep :)

         Saturday night have a little drink with my ex-colleagues on Sharon's wedding. drank a cup of wine and 2 cups of Vodka. O gosh,my head went spinning when i reach home. slept for only 4 hours before heading to work again. :( My head is aching so badly that I'm afraid i might make mistakes during work. every move i took,i double check many times. The feeling of this is totally disgusting. :p I promise not to challenge myself again if i got to work the next day.

          Monday morning worrying morning night. What is this? O please God,may my this 3 consecutive nights shift is a quiet and peaceful one without any harassment. :p

          In your name of Jesus,Amen!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

A sleepy Saturday

           I'm so sleepy!!! Slept at 12+ yesterday and being disturb by a call from Mum at 8+ today. Thanks to the call,I'm unable to sleep anymore. My head is feeling 'heavy' now...argh!!!Tonight still got an important function to attend--Sharon's wedding dinner... ...and guess what? I'm working morning shift tmr :( what an excellent roster it was!

           Last night had an awesome musical concert,a musical production by Generations :) It's about the prodigal father--a warmth typical family story depicting an unmeasurable father's LOVE to his children :) Initially invited PL,however she gots to work unknowingly. In the end,was Hee Teck accompany. Well, whoever it is,thanks God for the awesome show and friend. :)

          Waking up early in the morning unplanned,drank a cup of hot milk tea(my routine) watching TV. On and off, was very restless. Please God,let me back to sleep. I'm really really very tired. Ate lots of the natural confectionery 'snakes' jellies which i bought last night. Tidy a little my wall board,re-pasting and re-positioning all the memorable memos and cards from friends. Re-reading all and my heart feels so sweet again. Thanks God for all the friends in my life. :) Now cracking my brain on how to 'hang' all photos of mine on my bedroom wall.

          This afternoon should have cell and bible study with Sarah. But God please forgive me of my laziness and tiredness :( I'm really have no mood in everything when I'm tired :(